The Day Birthday

Because it's my birthday, I was inspired by a friend of mine, ate aye (http://angelaye18.wordpress.com), to write about what happened today and post it on my blog.

1) I had a great discussion with my Sabbath School Small Group. Lots of friends were there and we talked about the importance of showing reverence to God in worship and how important it is to know the God we worship. I really enjoyed the presence of everyone there.

2) I attended the Second divine worship and really got captivated by the song "I AM" and "No More Nights" embedded in the message of the speaker. It was a clear reminder that God is I Am and all I have to do is to trust Him, know Him and acknowledge his plans for my life. I was also blessed to serve for the deaf ministry as the interpreter during the prayers. I seem to get the hang of it. I enjoyed it a lot.

3) Surprised to see no one from the Youth Ministry core group after the service. They were all in their small group room. I got several CDs and huge birthday greeting from all of them. I loved those people.

4) Spent lunch with my cousins who came over to have the latest addition in our growing clan dedicated in church. It's not really a baptismal, it was more like a dedication service to encourage the parents to lead their kids in church. We had a hearty meal.

5) Running to and fro the deaf ministry fulfilling last minute duties such as providing them with fare and lunch budget for the next Sabbath. All the while preparing to leave for Fort Andres Bonifacio Adventist Church where the Area 8 Fellowship was supposed to be held. The deaf ministry are supposed to go as well, but I opted to go with the Makati Project Grow people for some personal reasons not against any ministry. 

6) Experienced the heavy rains on our way to FABAC. I forgot that every time, at this exact date, it rains. Had a great talk with some friends while on the bus and had a hilarious moment while waiting in the rain and riding the jeepney that would take us to FABAC, which was already jam packed when we came.

7) Really didn't feel anything during the afternoon program. Missed the sermon and missed out on the commitment message. It was somewhat disappointing, but I was blessed when the deaf ministry sang. Got a lot of hilarious moments with my deaf brothers as well. 

8) Escaped the social nights because someone also wanted to go home. Instead of going home, went straight to Market Market and had dinner. It was great night with friends including that someone. 

9) On our way home, our group separated to our destinations. Said someone had no choice but to go with me since we live somewhat near each other. Made small talk. Enjoyed the time and even walked that said someone home to cap the night.

10) Something got into my friend, Mike Duco. He posted one of the legendary photos on FB and didn't even bother to hide it from others. So before the night ended I had a lot of people posting on my wall with greetings. I intentionally didn't put my birthday on my profile so only a select few would remember. However, something came into Mike Duco that made him do crazy stuff. 

11) Technically not counted as part of the day and also this should only be up to 10, but had time to watch the CD I received this morning. Almost moved to tears by the volume of people who greeted on that CD. Nagsabwatan ang buong Youth Ministries sinama pa ang parents ko. Hmp! hahaha...

Great! hahaha...

Be Lonely No More

I was browsing through my old posts on my friendster blog when I found this on one of the posts. Funny thing was I couldn't remember why I wrote this but it gave me the laughs. This was posted March 16, 2006. Whatever happened then, I didn't write it down, but I seemed to be so downcast maybe even emo.I think this is worth sharing though. so enjoy!

Flash. In one blink of an eye. I share a glimpse of humiliation. Just one vivid glance of a life that I would have to take for the next generations. And what did I do about it? Nothing. Like the advanced stutterer whose blocks catches him breathless and mimed, I became the immobile target of silence. As the running brooklet flowing stopped and froze at the sight of the cool breeze of winter, I became the same stillness, the same silence. And at the same time I became useless.

At this point, at this single moment among others, I felt as a lone tree on a hill. Pale, bare and vulnerable. Touched and agonized by the foul cold wind. The other trees mock me, where they should have grown alongside, they left me blissful.

Surmounting the obstacles alone, or rather left me with nothing to do. Most would have been greatful for having nothing to do, but for me it meant losing my self. Losing my credibility and status. It meant that I goofed. It meant that I had my chance but I blew it real time.

Maybe there really is time for change.

As the lone tree stands still on that hill, as the brooklet freezes and bows to the heavy blizzard, I know for a fact that they never cease to exist. The wind may howl but they would never extiguish that flicker of hope, of love and of God that has so kept both in a similar fate and made both stronger. As the brooklet that runs by and the tree that stands alone, I won’t cease to exist.

Maybe this is the reason for all the things that is happening to me.

Right at the exact moment, when little by little, I have learned to love and accept the path that I trod, I find myself alone and in despair. It seemed as though those that walked with me on this path has long since thought that I won’t be coming alone and would be better off leaving me to myself. But this time I would prove them wrong. This time I’d show them. I’d prove them. And this is why I had a second chance, a second shot to life. but this time I’ll be walking with those who went after me. But this time I’ll do better to make an impression. And I have GOd with me to do it…

See? Isn't it funny? I used lots of flowery words.Oh well...