I guess this is it.
I never learn.
It's the same feeling of being shouted at from across the road in front of a lot of people. The same feeling where you got no where to run and nothing to do but smile.
Smile.
Even if it hurts. Even if it burns.
It's the same feeling you get when you're left hanging and the person you expected to see is suddenly a thousand miles away. No good byes. The feeling where you have no choice but to turn back, and smile.
Smile.
Even if it hurts. Even if it burns.
It's the same feeling when you're on the phone talking to someone who meant a lot to you, telling you that there's another one and that another one is also close to your heart - almost a brother. That feeling when you can't get the tears to fall and all you can do is let go. Just smile.
Smile.
Even if it burns. Even if it hurts.
Now the silent ones hurt the most. When kindness gets too much and too close for comfort, you fall but then in the end there's nothing there. So much for trying not to hurt anyone. There's nothing to do but smile.
Smile.
Even if it hurts. Even if it burns.
In the end it's always my fault. It's always the guys who are to blame.
There are just those stupid jocks who think they own all women, they take it all at the same time. Thereby making women think that all men are like that. They lie, cheat, steal and break leaving the women scarred and fighting for life - the life that they lost.
Then there are those weirdos who love too deeply even if unreciprocated. They get no fighting chance because the woman they loved thought all men are the same - stupid jocks. They couldn't say what they feel because they have been rejected even before saying anything. They just smile.
Then there's God. Why is God in the picture? Because He's the guy who loves everyone too deeply but gets rejected because everyone wants something else. He gets rejected because our careers, our futures and many other trivial stuff are seen as more lovable than Him - the author of love Himself.
In the end the guys are all to blame. They're all the same anyway.
They're all sinful human beings.
And they just don't learn.
I just never learn.
