at a loss for words..

It Doesn't Matter

If someone asked you, “how old are you?” How would you respond?

In my current world of yuppies, fancy coffee shops and gadgets, I have often met people who answered that question with a gaze that seemed to say, “Is that even a question?” It’s true. Once a girl I met just stared at me when I asked that question. Another guy guffawed with gusto when I asked his age.

I really couldn’t help but wonder why they tried to avoid such a question as simple as how many earth rotations around the sun you have experienced. Why do people hide their age?

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That Human Connection

This must have been a very busy sunday.

Or not.

At least for me.

I spent the day feeling lazy and drowsy. Mind the rhymes. Of course, people who knew my insides perfectly well would definitely say, "So, what's new?"

Then again, today is a special case. I slept late after our planning session which ended at 3 in the morning. It was one of those crucial but fun night outs that we do in church. It was a party-business meeting-joke time and everything else rolled into one.

I would have put up an all nighter watching DVDs afterwards like we usually do, but since I have work the next day, I had to sleep even for a few hours.

I actually expected a really busy Sunday. I work only until 12 noon every Sunday and usually spend the rest of the afternoon doing paper works.

Today was different. Not that I don't have any paper works lined up, I actually had a few. It just seemed like today was a really lazy Sunday with nothing to worry about except how to breathe properly and eat properly.

If you think it was a great Sunday. Think again.

It was pretty boring.

I would have preferred to roam around the streets of the metro looking at the strange and fun human activity most people are doing. I would have preferred talking to someone and unearthing the secrets to life.

I especially craved for the latter today. I really wanted to talk to someone. My sisters were busy doing school work while my brother's busy reviewing. Everyone was too busy to talk to.

I tried texting people. It was in vain though. I actually assumed that people would respond more on weekends than on weekdays. Actually, it turned out that no one would reply to any messages you send on any day of the week.

I see the real difference a year or two back when I had more than one conversations going on in a day. Everyone seemed to be hyped when receiving a non-sense message. A conversation was easy to get from heart to heart talks to sharing corny jokes and one liners.

Nowadays, people seemed to have forgotten that the small hand-sized gadgets they have are primarily used for communication. Most people tend to have little time to have a conversation with other people.

Okay, I know I'm over generalizing. Maybe I've tried to contact only a few people or maybe I was way off timing. But still, I crave for that time when I could converse with someone and would get reasonable if not logical answers.

Don't mind me, I'm just ranting. It's a lazy sunday anyway.

Hope I'm Right.

I’m still young, I don’t know what to believe.

I firmly believe that the younger generation needs to be taught the values that they would need in life. Not only the do’s and don’ts but the principles that they needed to hold onto so as to live a life with a purpose.

I believe that a life with a purpose would be better realized not through education but through having a firm foundation and value system. With the economic crises that we are experiencing today, what else can we leave for the younger generation?

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My Futile Attempts.

Oh how much I've struggled.

I've tried everything to get to know you more. I tried looking around. I tried asking around. I tried keeping track of you. I kept my eyes and ears open. I kept my mind open as well.

Remember how I've poured out my all. All my frustrations, my rants and my aspirations. You became a witness to it all. I could only repay you by looking out at you. Struggling to keep you updated.

And you know, I never gave up on you. Even though it's hard and the times were though, I still kept you in my mind and hoped that one of these days I could visit you. I still longed to pour it all out.

How long has it been? I could not even remember. Yet my attempts were still futile. My ideas were still limited. My powers to keep you and bring you to the pinnacle of success were set back by mediocrity, lack of talent and technical know how.

I know, my attempts were futile.

I got frustrated.

But that won't stop me from going on. That won't hinder me from learning more and pouring out all my energies.

It's hard I know. There's a lot of things to know.

Yet I will do it all. You just wait. You'll be like others like you.

One of these days, I will know how to manage my wordpress blogs properly and learn what makes you tick. You just wait blog, I'll make you visually entertaining! :-P

What exactly were you thinking? This is about my other blog.

Manipulation and Temptation

“Ayaw!”

She flashed one of her most precious and cutest smile.

I was taken aback. You’d travel a thousand miles before you’d get to see this kind of smile. Anyone could be taken by the small petit frame with the high pitch voice. A small battery of cuteness no one could resist.

She smiled her most precious smile and pointed to a toy she wanted. The more I tried to say no, the more she smiled her heart-melting smile. Before I knew it, I was under her spell.

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YM of the Future

A lot has been said about the recent YM retreat. A lot has been mentioned about the 60 strong who prayed through the storms and was smiled upon by God. The pictures probably could tell what the words from our YM site could not express.

It's all enough and boring readers with details could be overkill.

Yet there's one word that could describe the retreat, it was blessed.

I have come to realize that a silent shifting in the Youth Ministries is brewing like strong hot coffee. Once you partake of it, you'd realize how long it would shock you and keep you awake. As of this writing, I could say that I shiver with excitement with the way things are turning out with me as witness and surveyor of it all. I could only hope and pray for such changes.

I sincerely pray for the coming ministry - a united front of God's children each one serving through and with their own groups. I pray for the merging of talents, hobbies, causes and professions for a continuous conglomeration of ideas. I pray for the breaking of the idea of exclusivity and instead the idea of openness and friendship. I pray for a lot of things and I hope such things could materialize in due time.