Be Lonely No More

I was browsing through my old posts on my friendster blog when I found this on one of the posts. Funny thing was I couldn't remember why I wrote this but it gave me the laughs. This was posted March 16, 2006. Whatever happened then, I didn't write it down, but I seemed to be so downcast maybe even emo.I think this is worth sharing though. so enjoy!

Flash. In one blink of an eye. I share a glimpse of humiliation. Just one vivid glance of a life that I would have to take for the next generations. And what did I do about it? Nothing. Like the advanced stutterer whose blocks catches him breathless and mimed, I became the immobile target of silence. As the running brooklet flowing stopped and froze at the sight of the cool breeze of winter, I became the same stillness, the same silence. And at the same time I became useless.

At this point, at this single moment among others, I felt as a lone tree on a hill. Pale, bare and vulnerable. Touched and agonized by the foul cold wind. The other trees mock me, where they should have grown alongside, they left me blissful.

Surmounting the obstacles alone, or rather left me with nothing to do. Most would have been greatful for having nothing to do, but for me it meant losing my self. Losing my credibility and status. It meant that I goofed. It meant that I had my chance but I blew it real time.

Maybe there really is time for change.

As the lone tree stands still on that hill, as the brooklet freezes and bows to the heavy blizzard, I know for a fact that they never cease to exist. The wind may howl but they would never extiguish that flicker of hope, of love and of God that has so kept both in a similar fate and made both stronger. As the brooklet that runs by and the tree that stands alone, I won’t cease to exist.

Maybe this is the reason for all the things that is happening to me.

Right at the exact moment, when little by little, I have learned to love and accept the path that I trod, I find myself alone and in despair. It seemed as though those that walked with me on this path has long since thought that I won’t be coming alone and would be better off leaving me to myself. But this time I would prove them wrong. This time I’d show them. I’d prove them. And this is why I had a second chance, a second shot to life. but this time I’ll be walking with those who went after me. But this time I’ll do better to make an impression. And I have GOd with me to do it…

See? Isn't it funny? I used lots of flowery words.Oh well...